Title says it all. I am incredibly close to my chemistry teacher, who I work with in Science Research Club through being an officer. He has helped me with A LOT. I don't know if sending this letter will be a bad thing, or if it's cheesy or sappy, but I really wanted to express my thanks. Here is the letter (SORRY IT'S LONG, but I need thorough help):
I hope you are well. I just want to express my gratitude for your influence over the past two year.
You may remember my thoughts, which then evolved into a desire to explore my opportunities a bit more. The past few months were quite tough, in that I didnt have a firm decision in what exactly I wanted to do with my passion for science. I remember feeling lost, confused, questionable, and even scared at times. While there were many outside factors, I have come to decide that I want to become a secondary science teacher.
You may ask: Which branch of science? I have still have yet to decide that. Its quite funny, honestly, that what I really want out of my life is something that has been in front of me all this time, and I didnt realize it till later. Yes, I did dream of being a doctor, then an engineer, and back and forth countless times. But as I head into those fields and learn more, I learn more about myself.
While desiring to be a doctor, I seemed to put tons of pressure on myself. I have to be perfect in this, I have to be perfect in that. The competition is cutthroat, and its not quite good for a budget. It would be such a risk to pay such an expensive tuition. I would've been in work and school for the rest of my life. Personally, as I learned more,, it seemed to me that I had other passions I wanted to continue in life, but then I wouldnt really be able to keep up with them, since medicine would have become my life. I do at times feel regret in giving up a dream I had since I was a little child, but to have the weight lifted off of me gives me a huge confidence boost. It is so worth it. And I don't care anymore what my mother thinks.
As for engineering, it was such an interesting field to me. To have my eyes opened through my science fair project was a factor. But to put it more simply, it doesnt really seem to fit me. I loved the science field. I did feel outside pressure since it was such a good option (me being female, family full of engineers, growing field), but it wasnt what I really wanted.
Don't get me wrong, I still LOVE the two fields, but I can't really dedicate to a job that will not make me the happiest I can be.
What I really want to achieve in life is to apply my knowledge in the service to others. Science serves humankind. I wanted to help out a broad spectrum of people, and inspire them, just like you have for me. To see you so happy in your dedication in something you love is such an amazing thing. Every time the science research club meets, the look of excitement in my club mates' faces is just amazing. I love science, and I hope to inspire that in students.
I know some people may think Im crazy for turning these two amazing options down, but I would be crazier to pursue something that I didnt really feel passionate about.
I cannot thank you enough for all that you have done for me. What else can I say about these past two years?
I look forward to working with you in my senior year. And, please expect some silly questions here and there in trying to reach my goal. Thank you again.